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Cliffhanger

Rock climbing

up the snowy ledges

toward the cave

of

fear

on the edge

why?--to achieve (symbolic)

success.

Is it worth it?

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Boots step carefully

slowly

steep, narrow pockets

where snow at least is firmer

than rock or moss

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Steps appearing forward, with closer view

step by step...it could be possible...

this is about accomplishment, positive thinking--

...right?

but no. One slip...

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Turning back

the way I came

(thinking of avalanche victims

ten dead in recent weeks)

another opening...try again?

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The inner voice: No. Just fear?

Why risk it? I could go around.

(Flash to deer intuition--I felt a voice not to go on that highway, but discounted it,

irrational...went a little farther around a curve and

wham!--she (pregnant, in April) veered full speed into the front fender--killed.)

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I do go around: the easy way, back end of ridge-top

look down the way up I would have come: steep,

forbidding snowy access to the west.
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Now I can enjoy the view

...friends in Nepal, seeing five of the ten highest peaks, at once!

(the easier way, trekking)

I reflect: adventure, heroism?

--why? Challenge, risk, adrenaline

pride. Symbolic of achievement, success

worthiness...yet leaves question

...was it worth it?

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From there I walk on up the hill toward my original destination

...the cave. Should I continue?

Nah.

Why not?

There's no computer in the cave.
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© Nowick Gray
31 January 1998


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